Full-Blown Pain: My Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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